Healthy Hump Day

When I started  back at Fitness Together for PACK Training 4 weeks ago I couldn't run 100 meters.  Today I ran 1200 meters--well, at least close to that. I also did reps of 50, 40, 30, 20 and10 step jumps with a 200 meter run in between. This may not seem like a big deal to you guys, but for me?! It was huge, like bring tears to my eyes huge. 

Yeah, I couldn't even do that in high school.

 See 21 year old me in the top row, far left?

Honestly? Without the help of lipo and a tummy tuck, my 21-year old body isn't a realistic goal. At that time I was vegan and working in the stock room for The Nature Company (which is sadly no more) at the mall. I was pulling 8 hour days climbing all over shelves with boxes in my arms or on my shoulders (OSHA would have a fit) and I was in shape.

When you have a baby your body changes. And when you gain wait, then get hugely pregnant your body really changes.  As in (sorry for the grossness here) my belly is pretty much a soft mountain of stretched out skin not quite full of fat but also not tightening back up. It's kind of a spongy beer gut.

So no, I don't have a great body image, but I'm working on it. I think kids are sensitive to the smallest nuances of self doubt. They are, after all, soaking the world around them in, then mimicking the behavior they see because that's their gauge on how to behave.

I'm determined to show the strength of self-acceptance to those who see me as a role model, Mabel especially.


ashley said...

You are absolutely beautiful. Seriously. Very, very beautiful.

This quote helps me keep things in perspective:

"You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body." (CS Lewis)

Misti said...

Good luck with your running! When I got out of college 9 years ago the first thing I did was try to ditch the college weight by running. I was successful for a few years but got lazy again. Thanks to the two hikes last year I am back in shape and now trying to work on another 5K.

Kudos and you will do great! :)

alison said...

Congrats to you! I wish you the best of luck. It is not always easy to find time to attend to our own health. Especially as women, we often have a tendency to put others needs before our own. Keep up the good work!

Katie D. said...

Don't be sorry for the grossness. It's not gross.


Anonymous said...

I agree, it's not gross. You are a grown-up and a mama. Love the pic on cagefree.

Melissa said...

Hah! You so perfectly just described MY belly! Yes, it's a bit sad what age and pregnancy does to a woman's body, but I have to say, even with my 'spongy beer gut' (which I'm hoping will eventually flatten out and firm up with the help of my exercise videos), I think I love my body more now than I did when I was in my 20s. Or at least I appreciate it more after all it's done to 'house' and birth two babies.

Congrats on getting back into fitness and keep up the awesome work!